I Got Accepted(Finally)

I guess being in a conservative community, the values that are integrated in, takes root in every one of us no matter how much we want to be liberal.

Our defiance(especially mine) to conform to society's values holds no ground when we ourselves are subjected to the trivial tests and sequences where in the end we are accepted.

Yes, I have to admit. I got accepted by society. I got accepted by something which I detest sometimes. I readily and shamelessly(my body is ready) submitted myself to a body of double standards.

I got accepted into a public school.

I wouldn't say I was surprised. You see, there were interviews and I thought I did a good job in every single one of them. Having gotten all the offers made my day as well(cock now aren't we?)

This is a big deal because of the institutionalized racism happening here and my scores aren't that great to say the least. There are countless others who gotten better scores than I have, who could've gotten a cool course like mine.

I must say, I deserve every single ounce of victory because I worked my butt off for it, researching, being pedantic about everything, getting stressed out, gotten breakouts and Goddamn eye bags.

Being who I am, news like this are to be celebrated by the whole extended family. But none of them rang, I'm guessing because none of their kids are in public schools. Oh well

Now I just gotta wait. Wait til I detest again.

I Will Not Start by Cliched Ideals

Salutations.
I gotta say, what's a blog for anyways? I started one in 2010 and look what happened?
Nothing.
I thought it was a 'cool' thing to do, to own a blog but nevertheless, like everything I do, I quit halfway.
But that's only because I could not find a concrete answer to what is a blog for.
Being ignorant, I started blogging without thinking. And truth be told, it lasted only a day.
There wasn't an update until 3 YEARS later. I'd like to say it's an accomplishment probably even resume worthy, but employers nowadays don't look for procrastinators of my caliber right? I mean what a record! Their company statistics are gonna blow off the basement!
It wasn't because I was lazy, it's just I didn't have any motivations to start getting into blogging.
Not like studying, I mean, we study to get good results right? That's motivation.
And then, right after we get into a good college, we wanna secure a good CGPA for employment right? That's motivation.
Next, we have to save money to buy things, for retirement and etc. That there is a big motivation.
But then again, in the end, was it worth it?
In the end, we're chasing and accomplishing goals, not that that's a bad thing, but what sacrifices did we need to make in order for those goals to happen? Precious childhood memories? First kiss? That outing with your friends? Motivation comes from what you want in the future, but what about the present?
So I thought, maybe you don't need motivation to do anything.
Maybe you do something for the sake of doing it?
And with that in mind, I restarted blogging.
I don't expect anyone to read this, but this blog here is gonna be like my diary but public one and maybe a few rants here and there. But basically, it feeds my ego and keeps the illusion that I have excellent writing skills which quite frankly I don't even have the basics down.
Who knows, I might break my personal record and not start blogging again til